I have some VERY good news! I am ME again! Reed said that he finally has the woman he married back. I thought I had just lost some part of me along the road and couldn't ever find her again.
I am grateful for my sweet and loving husband. There is such beauty in the day now. It is as if I have had blinders over my eyes and heart but they have been removed to reveal a beautiful world.
I still have the same issues going on in our family but they seem like they are workable. I hadn't been able to attend the temple for a long time because of my horrible anxiety. Last Saturday, Reed and I went to the temple. It was such a powerful tonic for my heart! That is a new goal we have set - go at least once a month!
I want you all to know how very grateful I am for the many blessings YOU have prayed into my life. We feel your prayers and they are being answered! Our little family is safe. We are growing closer together and we recognize the blessings received because of your love and faith.
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
August, Music and Meds.....
OK, I have been seriously lacking in my blogging of late. Actually, it is fair to say I have been seriously lacking in EVERYTHING lately.
Since April, I have felt myself falling in a spiral that didn't seem to end. I honestly thought I wouldn't ever land.... and if I did it certainly wouldn't be a graceful landing. Something more akin to those Rick's College students who, in the mid-80's, thought it a good idea to wear spike heels in the ice covered sidewalks that never saw the sunshine while those of us who knew better watched them and laughed as they unceremoniously landed on their backside. Yup, that is how I saw my life.
Well? Vosco is in a treatment program in American Fork, UT. I don't really know how long he will be there, but I know that he will not be coming home again..... well, not until he is an adult.
Slowly, I am coming to grips with the new definition of 'family' we will know from here.
Amidst all of this, I became more and more overwhelmed with the tasks associated with life. Cleaning house, doing laundry, cooking meals. You know, the Mom job. However, I could read. And read, I did. A LOT!
Finally, I forced myself to find a doctor to discuss the distinct possibility that my meds weren't very effective anymore. I have been on anti-depressants for about 16 years. After calling every psychiatrist listed on my insurance I found out that NONE of them are accepting new patients AND my GP won't touch anti-depressants with a 10 Foot Pole. YIPPEE!!!!! Finally, I found a doctor that is a D.O. (Have no idea what that means) BUT, he has written many books on depression and the treatment options available.
After asking me about a gazillion questions about my life, my family history and such it was decided that I was actually, Bi-Polar II. Without periods of great mania my symptoms will read to most as just your garden variety depression. He has put me on some new meds and I am actually thinking I may see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I was also suffering from HUGE anxiety attacks from Hell in 3-D. I couldn't even answer the phone! New drug.... anxiety is manageable.
My Heavenly Father has shown me many tender mercies that has helped me tremendously. A sister from my ward just popping over and helping me with my house. Conversations with two of my sisters who TOTALLY get me and can assure me, from their own experiences, that this, too, shall pass. A husband who silently fills in all the gaps left from my inability to function. A husband who loves me in spite of myself! A husband who is undeniably the most sensitive, loving and supportive man on the face of the planet.
Yes, my Father in Heaven still loves me. Life is going to be OK. Maybe even absolutely wonderful! I have every faith that it will be.
Since April, I have felt myself falling in a spiral that didn't seem to end. I honestly thought I wouldn't ever land.... and if I did it certainly wouldn't be a graceful landing. Something more akin to those Rick's College students who, in the mid-80's, thought it a good idea to wear spike heels in the ice covered sidewalks that never saw the sunshine while those of us who knew better watched them and laughed as they unceremoniously landed on their backside. Yup, that is how I saw my life.
Well? Vosco is in a treatment program in American Fork, UT. I don't really know how long he will be there, but I know that he will not be coming home again..... well, not until he is an adult.
Slowly, I am coming to grips with the new definition of 'family' we will know from here.
Amidst all of this, I became more and more overwhelmed with the tasks associated with life. Cleaning house, doing laundry, cooking meals. You know, the Mom job. However, I could read. And read, I did. A LOT!
Finally, I forced myself to find a doctor to discuss the distinct possibility that my meds weren't very effective anymore. I have been on anti-depressants for about 16 years. After calling every psychiatrist listed on my insurance I found out that NONE of them are accepting new patients AND my GP won't touch anti-depressants with a 10 Foot Pole. YIPPEE!!!!! Finally, I found a doctor that is a D.O. (Have no idea what that means) BUT, he has written many books on depression and the treatment options available.
After asking me about a gazillion questions about my life, my family history and such it was decided that I was actually, Bi-Polar II. Without periods of great mania my symptoms will read to most as just your garden variety depression. He has put me on some new meds and I am actually thinking I may see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I was also suffering from HUGE anxiety attacks from Hell in 3-D. I couldn't even answer the phone! New drug.... anxiety is manageable.
My Heavenly Father has shown me many tender mercies that has helped me tremendously. A sister from my ward just popping over and helping me with my house. Conversations with two of my sisters who TOTALLY get me and can assure me, from their own experiences, that this, too, shall pass. A husband who silently fills in all the gaps left from my inability to function. A husband who loves me in spite of myself! A husband who is undeniably the most sensitive, loving and supportive man on the face of the planet.
Yes, my Father in Heaven still loves me. Life is going to be OK. Maybe even absolutely wonderful! I have every faith that it will be.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
4th of July
Every fourth of July I find myself pondering the sacrifices made by countless people so that I can enjoy the freedoms they fought to achieve.
I can't look at this day without thinking about my Daddy. He was a pilot in WWII. There is an entire chunk of his life that I never knew about. The experience of war was just too painful to recall, I suppose. How could he have ever painted an accurate picture of war without instilling great fear in his listeners? There are some experiences better left unsaid.
This I do know. My dad was gentle, loving and kind. If he raised his voice at us we KNEW he was at the end of his rope. He had a delightful sense of humor but was quiet about it.
I can't even hear the name Bill Cosby without giggling. My Daddy would lean against the door frame between the living room and the kitchen and just squeak with giggles when we would watch "Bill Cosby. Himself." That is when I learned that humor was best when clean and appropriate for ALL family members.
My Daddy was the first generation born in this country. He loved his country. He was proud to be an American and willing to lay down his life to protect the tenets we enjoy. He never knew the life of great wealth. But he knew how to raise his children to be grateful for EVERYTHING they had. I never thought of us as poor until I grew up and had my own children and realized how difficult it must have been for them with 6 kids.
I remember when I was in about the first grade. Every Sunday night we would go into the kitchen and daddy would have us stand on the lid of an egg carton. He would outline our feet, cut out the shape and place it in our shoes. He never made us feel like he was angry or upset about this. It was actually a fun memory for me. He would hug me and say something to make me giggle every time. If my feet were ever cold, I have no memory of it. I always thought life was just wonderful!
The other night I had the opportunity to speak with a bunch of WWII Vets at a dinner I was asked to attend. It was interesting to see these men in their 80's. We spoke about a lot of things that night but the war did come up briefly. When they mentioned their service you could see the silent pride of a job well done. It felt very good to be able to thank them for their service. A big chunk of my heart yearned to be able to tell my own Daddy thank you.
Anyway, for all those who have served and for those who are currently serving, I say Thank you. I pray that you will KNOW of our appreciation and love.
I can't look at this day without thinking about my Daddy. He was a pilot in WWII. There is an entire chunk of his life that I never knew about. The experience of war was just too painful to recall, I suppose. How could he have ever painted an accurate picture of war without instilling great fear in his listeners? There are some experiences better left unsaid.
This I do know. My dad was gentle, loving and kind. If he raised his voice at us we KNEW he was at the end of his rope. He had a delightful sense of humor but was quiet about it.
I can't even hear the name Bill Cosby without giggling. My Daddy would lean against the door frame between the living room and the kitchen and just squeak with giggles when we would watch "Bill Cosby. Himself." That is when I learned that humor was best when clean and appropriate for ALL family members.
My Daddy was the first generation born in this country. He loved his country. He was proud to be an American and willing to lay down his life to protect the tenets we enjoy. He never knew the life of great wealth. But he knew how to raise his children to be grateful for EVERYTHING they had. I never thought of us as poor until I grew up and had my own children and realized how difficult it must have been for them with 6 kids.
I remember when I was in about the first grade. Every Sunday night we would go into the kitchen and daddy would have us stand on the lid of an egg carton. He would outline our feet, cut out the shape and place it in our shoes. He never made us feel like he was angry or upset about this. It was actually a fun memory for me. He would hug me and say something to make me giggle every time. If my feet were ever cold, I have no memory of it. I always thought life was just wonderful!
The other night I had the opportunity to speak with a bunch of WWII Vets at a dinner I was asked to attend. It was interesting to see these men in their 80's. We spoke about a lot of things that night but the war did come up briefly. When they mentioned their service you could see the silent pride of a job well done. It felt very good to be able to thank them for their service. A big chunk of my heart yearned to be able to tell my own Daddy thank you.
Anyway, for all those who have served and for those who are currently serving, I say Thank you. I pray that you will KNOW of our appreciation and love.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Never ask "What's next?"
Well, my long anticipated trip to Wyoming to visit my nephews has fallen through. On our way home from Logan last night our van's engine blew. We just don't have the money to replace an engine so.... we are not going to visit. I am just so dang bummed.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Life in Logan...
I know, it has been forever since I have updated the blog. Honestly, I was waiting for things to solidify and ultimately calm down. Since that seems to be a fultile hope (and I am not complaining) I will update you all now.
Since my last post my show, You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown has opened. We have had half of our performances thus far and it seems to be going well. Audiences seem to enjoy it very much and that is always a great feeling.
Immediately after my show opened I began a two week certification process for my Level II in Orff Schulwerk. This is a method of teaching music, instrumentation and movement that was developed by Carl Orff. In some states this certification is just as valuable as an actual degree. Not so much in Utah. However, it has vastly improved my teaching and my ability to provide a well rounded music education for my students. Level II is much more difficult than I had anticipated but it feels good to stretch my musical brain.
Our family (Reed, Ruby and I) are going to Star Valley, WY for the 4th of July. I am so excited. Playing with my family makes me happier than anything else! It doesn't hurt that Wyoming has such AWESOME fireworks available for the average Joe! IT IS SO MUCH FUN!
Vosco is in American Fork for his treatment program. We don't know when we can see him but we can talk to him for 15 minutes on Sundays.
Ruby just spent a wonderful week with her "Aunt" Aria. SHE HAD A BALL!!! She can't stop talking about the fun they had putting water and shampoo on the trampoline and then sliding all over it. Just the mental image made me giggle.
Although it has been nice to be "distracted" by theatre and Orff, I am looking forward to spending some quality time at home with my cute little family.
I hope you all know how very much we appreciate your love and support. WE FEEL YOUR PRAYERS! We will be OK in time. I have to trust that all will be well.
Since my last post my show, You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown has opened. We have had half of our performances thus far and it seems to be going well. Audiences seem to enjoy it very much and that is always a great feeling.
Immediately after my show opened I began a two week certification process for my Level II in Orff Schulwerk. This is a method of teaching music, instrumentation and movement that was developed by Carl Orff. In some states this certification is just as valuable as an actual degree. Not so much in Utah. However, it has vastly improved my teaching and my ability to provide a well rounded music education for my students. Level II is much more difficult than I had anticipated but it feels good to stretch my musical brain.
Our family (Reed, Ruby and I) are going to Star Valley, WY for the 4th of July. I am so excited. Playing with my family makes me happier than anything else! It doesn't hurt that Wyoming has such AWESOME fireworks available for the average Joe! IT IS SO MUCH FUN!
Vosco is in American Fork for his treatment program. We don't know when we can see him but we can talk to him for 15 minutes on Sundays.
Ruby just spent a wonderful week with her "Aunt" Aria. SHE HAD A BALL!!! She can't stop talking about the fun they had putting water and shampoo on the trampoline and then sliding all over it. Just the mental image made me giggle.
Although it has been nice to be "distracted" by theatre and Orff, I am looking forward to spending some quality time at home with my cute little family.
I hope you all know how very much we appreciate your love and support. WE FEEL YOUR PRAYERS! We will be OK in time. I have to trust that all will be well.
Friday, June 12, 2009
The Foreigner.
Last night was the official opening of the Old lyric Repertory Company. What a wonderful way to start the season. It was beautifully directed, perfectly performed and hilarious to behold. OH MY!
I have seen my good friend, Lee Daily perform the role of Ellard and thought nobody could ever be Ellard. Then I saw Lee perform the role of Charlie and I can't imagine anyone ever being able to play that role as well as he. OH MY GOODNESS!!! I laughed so hard. I want to go to every single performance.
The entire cast performed together effortlessly and the relationships between characters were solid and believable. If you have the chance, you need to get to Logan and see that show! For dates visit www.usu.edu/lyric and COME TO OUR THEATRE!
Last night was the official opening of the Old lyric Repertory Company. What a wonderful way to start the season. It was beautifully directed, perfectly performed and hilarious to behold. OH MY!
I have seen my good friend, Lee Daily perform the role of Ellard and thought nobody could ever be Ellard. Then I saw Lee perform the role of Charlie and I can't imagine anyone ever being able to play that role as well as he. OH MY GOODNESS!!! I laughed so hard. I want to go to every single performance.
The entire cast performed together effortlessly and the relationships between characters were solid and believable. If you have the chance, you need to get to Logan and see that show! For dates visit www.usu.edu/lyric and COME TO OUR THEATRE!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Ruby and I just got back from Burley.
I have never been to Richard and Sayda Call's house before today. It was such a treat! You walk into their home and are instantly enveloped in a blanket of love. It is palpable! I am so jealous that Ruby got to bask in that for a week! Sheesh! Some kids have all the luck!
Thank you, Dick and Sayda for loving my Ruby. Thank you for loving all of us. You are such a bright light in our lives that we honestly don't know what we did without you for so many years.
WE LOVE YOU!
I have never been to Richard and Sayda Call's house before today. It was such a treat! You walk into their home and are instantly enveloped in a blanket of love. It is palpable! I am so jealous that Ruby got to bask in that for a week! Sheesh! Some kids have all the luck!
Thank you, Dick and Sayda for loving my Ruby. Thank you for loving all of us. You are such a bright light in our lives that we honestly don't know what we did without you for so many years.
WE LOVE YOU!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Really not much going on in the life and times of the Wagstaff Family. I have been in rehearsal many hours of the day and catching up on some reading. I just finished Ender's Game and thought it was brilliant.
Our little Ruby has been visiting the Call family in Burley, Idaho since last Wednesday and I MISS HER! I realized that I have not been away from her for more than a few days at a time and I am ready for her to COME HOME!
I had the nicest surprise (again)! My nephew Jason and his cute family came to visit for a few hours the other night. Jason made me a bird house! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! He and Kim have the sweetest children in the world. They are so loving and kind. It always does my heart good to hug the guts our of their kids. (I am positive that they are relieved when the Aunt Edye hugs are over.)
I will post some pictures of the bird house soon... it is so cool!
Vosco. I have been mourning my family unit today. I got to see Vos for 30 minutes yesterday and it warmed my heart. Every time I leave him I leave a chunk of my heart there with him.
On Friday he will be taken to "Alliance for Youth" in American Fork, Utah. If he is successful in their program, the fastest he can go through is about 11 months. After that, he will go somewhere like a "Proctor Home" for an unspecified amount of time. After that, he will go to a community placement (like family or friend) before he is allowed back in the home. He may not come home again until after he is 18. Even then, he may not be allowed home.... I don't know what the judge will order.
I guess I am feeling like we didn't do enough. We haven't traveled as a family at all. We haven't gone to Disneyland. We haven't been on a family trip since Ruby was born. Now, we never will. Lord knows we have spent every last resource to get help for our boy, but that left nothing for 'fun'. What memories with they have? What stories will they tell their children? Will any of them be good? I don't know how to answer that.
Our little Ruby has been visiting the Call family in Burley, Idaho since last Wednesday and I MISS HER! I realized that I have not been away from her for more than a few days at a time and I am ready for her to COME HOME!
I had the nicest surprise (again)! My nephew Jason and his cute family came to visit for a few hours the other night. Jason made me a bird house! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! He and Kim have the sweetest children in the world. They are so loving and kind. It always does my heart good to hug the guts our of their kids. (I am positive that they are relieved when the Aunt Edye hugs are over.)
I will post some pictures of the bird house soon... it is so cool!
Vosco. I have been mourning my family unit today. I got to see Vos for 30 minutes yesterday and it warmed my heart. Every time I leave him I leave a chunk of my heart there with him.
On Friday he will be taken to "Alliance for Youth" in American Fork, Utah. If he is successful in their program, the fastest he can go through is about 11 months. After that, he will go somewhere like a "Proctor Home" for an unspecified amount of time. After that, he will go to a community placement (like family or friend) before he is allowed back in the home. He may not come home again until after he is 18. Even then, he may not be allowed home.... I don't know what the judge will order.
I guess I am feeling like we didn't do enough. We haven't traveled as a family at all. We haven't gone to Disneyland. We haven't been on a family trip since Ruby was born. Now, we never will. Lord knows we have spent every last resource to get help for our boy, but that left nothing for 'fun'. What memories with they have? What stories will they tell their children? Will any of them be good? I don't know how to answer that.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
I had the sweetest surprise this morning. My niece, Kelsey came in to see Music and the Spoken Word! Since I was in rehearsal in Logan on Thursday I wasn't able to perform today so we sat together!
Now, I know I have been missing my family A LOT. I can't explain how good it felt to see her, hug her and giggle with her. I have missed her so much more than I even realized! I definitely need to GO HOME and see my siblings and their kids.
Kelsey, thank you for coming to SLC. I know it was an extremely early morning. Thanks for choosing to share it with your old Aunt Edye.
I love you!
Now, I know I have been missing my family A LOT. I can't explain how good it felt to see her, hug her and giggle with her. I have missed her so much more than I even realized! I definitely need to GO HOME and see my siblings and their kids.
Kelsey, thank you for coming to SLC. I know it was an extremely early morning. Thanks for choosing to share it with your old Aunt Edye.
I love you!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
You're a Good Man Charlie Brown!
Here are the dates for my show:
June 17, 18, 19, 25, 27th (27th M&E)
July 18th M&E, 21, 31
Performances will be in the Caine Lyric Theatre, 28 West Center Street in Logan, UT For tickets, call 435-797-8022
Please come and giggle with us!
June 17, 18, 19, 25, 27th (27th M&E)
July 18th M&E, 21, 31
Performances will be in the Caine Lyric Theatre, 28 West Center Street in Logan, UT For tickets, call 435-797-8022
Please come and giggle with us!
There is light.....
Well, we have been told 'unofficially' that Vosco will be going into a group home in American Fork, UT. I don't know when that will happen, but very likely in the next few days.
The director of this home came and interviewed Vosco on Friday. Vosco said he felt very comfortable with this gentleman and that he felt like this would be a good place.
When his caseworker called me she asked if we would be wanting to take part in the therapy for Vosco. I said, "Of course! He is our son! We will do whatever it takes to help him through this!" Her response, "Oh, well, that's great. The vast majority of parents don't want to do that, so I guess I will need to keep him closer to home."
WHAT?!?!?!?
The parental units don't want to participate in FAMILY THERAPY?!?!? Whatever.
Thank you so much for your love and support. I will keep you posted as things develop.
The director of this home came and interviewed Vosco on Friday. Vosco said he felt very comfortable with this gentleman and that he felt like this would be a good place.
When his caseworker called me she asked if we would be wanting to take part in the therapy for Vosco. I said, "Of course! He is our son! We will do whatever it takes to help him through this!" Her response, "Oh, well, that's great. The vast majority of parents don't want to do that, so I guess I will need to keep him closer to home."
WHAT?!?!?!?
The parental units don't want to participate in FAMILY THERAPY?!?!? Whatever.
Thank you so much for your love and support. I will keep you posted as things develop.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Any of you who really know me, know that when life gets difficult, I do a show. I know, working in theatre can be stressful in an of itself. However, it is a stress I can actually CONTROL! I run the rehearsals (musically, anyway) and when in rehearsal I am like a man - SINGLE MINDED!!! NOTHING enters my mind during the rehearsal hours except the show.
Well??? My production of Seussical the Musical opens on Monday. Whew! I started rehearsing You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown last week for the Old Lyric Repertory Company. Thus, I am adequately 'distracted.'
There are a few things that seep through the rehearsal barrier. One such thing happened today.
During my 25 minute break at school I often go into the office because I find the office personnel rather comical. Four of these ladies have sons who are either about to leave or have very recently left to serve a mission for the LDS Church. It has been fun for me to watch them get ready to send their 'little boys' off into the mission-field. None of these ladies have served a mission so they really don't know what is in store for those boys, but they are nervous and scared for them.
Today, their conversation revolved around how hard it is for them right now. They just don't know how they are going to survive without their boys. They complained about how difficult it was to see them go into the MTC. They mourned the fact that they couldn't go farther than security in the airport when their little boys left for their areas of service. They were so SAAAAAD because of all of the above.
Frankly, I wanted to slap them. Do you have any idea how thrilled I would be to be able to send my child on a mission?!?!?
Court yesterday was difficult. Although we don't know exactly where Vosco will end up, these things we do know. 1) We have no more decision making power in the life of our 14 year old son. 2) It may be YEARS before the four of us can EVER do anything together again. 3) We will have limited (if any) moral influence on our son during his remaining juvenile years. 4) We may NEVER live together as a family again. 5) Although we have no decision making power in our son's life we still get the distinct pleasure of paying the state 'child support' until he is out of their custody.
I do not tell you this so you can "feel sorry for me" or for any other silly reason like that. Our life is what it is. We will do everything in our power to make sure our Vosco gets EVERYTHING he needs to succeed in this life. Ultimately, the success or failure of his treatment lies in his hands, but we will never stop doing what we can.
All I ask is this: PLEASE be grateful for the gifts you are given. These families who have missionaries out will see blessings in their lives FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES! I have been off my mission for over 22 years and I STILL see blessings from my service.
Sometimes blessings have some discomfort associated with them. In the midst of the trials we have faced we have seen an abundance of blessings and our faith has increased. I wish I didn't have to go through this trial... but I am grateful to take it head on and fight with all of my might.
Just be grateful and don't whine!
Well??? My production of Seussical the Musical opens on Monday. Whew! I started rehearsing You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown last week for the Old Lyric Repertory Company. Thus, I am adequately 'distracted.'
There are a few things that seep through the rehearsal barrier. One such thing happened today.
During my 25 minute break at school I often go into the office because I find the office personnel rather comical. Four of these ladies have sons who are either about to leave or have very recently left to serve a mission for the LDS Church. It has been fun for me to watch them get ready to send their 'little boys' off into the mission-field. None of these ladies have served a mission so they really don't know what is in store for those boys, but they are nervous and scared for them.
Today, their conversation revolved around how hard it is for them right now. They just don't know how they are going to survive without their boys. They complained about how difficult it was to see them go into the MTC. They mourned the fact that they couldn't go farther than security in the airport when their little boys left for their areas of service. They were so SAAAAAD because of all of the above.
Frankly, I wanted to slap them. Do you have any idea how thrilled I would be to be able to send my child on a mission?!?!?
Court yesterday was difficult. Although we don't know exactly where Vosco will end up, these things we do know. 1) We have no more decision making power in the life of our 14 year old son. 2) It may be YEARS before the four of us can EVER do anything together again. 3) We will have limited (if any) moral influence on our son during his remaining juvenile years. 4) We may NEVER live together as a family again. 5) Although we have no decision making power in our son's life we still get the distinct pleasure of paying the state 'child support' until he is out of their custody.
I do not tell you this so you can "feel sorry for me" or for any other silly reason like that. Our life is what it is. We will do everything in our power to make sure our Vosco gets EVERYTHING he needs to succeed in this life. Ultimately, the success or failure of his treatment lies in his hands, but we will never stop doing what we can.
All I ask is this: PLEASE be grateful for the gifts you are given. These families who have missionaries out will see blessings in their lives FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES! I have been off my mission for over 22 years and I STILL see blessings from my service.
Sometimes blessings have some discomfort associated with them. In the midst of the trials we have faced we have seen an abundance of blessings and our faith has increased. I wish I didn't have to go through this trial... but I am grateful to take it head on and fight with all of my might.
Just be grateful and don't whine!
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Little Keean arrives 14 weeks early....
My very sweet nephew, Travis and his wife, Amy had their baby make a surprise entrance on May 2nd. He weighed only 2lb. 4oz. Please include them in your prayers. He has a long road ahead of him before he can come home to his big sister, Paige!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Talk about Rollercoasters.....
By now, most of you have heard the news. Vosco is not in our home anymore. It is very likely that it will be about two years before he will be back.
Reed and I accompanied him to court this morning. Vosco took responsibility for his actions and plead guilty to the charge against him. It was a very difficult day.
I have found that it doesn't matter how many crime dramas you watch on TV, you have NO IDEA what the justice system is like until you experience it firsthand. Reed and I were instructed that we were to sit on either side of Vosco in the courtroom. Also, we were told we cannot touch him in any way while he is in custody.
I walked into the room first. I saw my boy turn and look at me with the most sullen expression on his face. Then I saw them.... shackles. He had handcuffs on with a chain that went down to join another chain that was attached to ankle cuffs. I was not expecting this.... I never know what to expect anymore.
I kept it together for the hearing. I had to consciously hold my hands together so I wouldn't accidentally touch him. I just wanted to hug him and let him know that we love him and that it will all be OK in time. Not today.
As Reed and I left the courtroom the ability to breathe left me... I started to hyperventilate and the tears.... oh boy! Those tears just flew out of my eyes. I completely fell apart! Some people needed to talk to us and we needed to get some paperwork so I had to get it together.
Then I got in the car. I don't think I have cried this hard since I lost my parents! The pain is very real, and you can actually feel the fissures expand in your heart. Finally, I understand the term "gut-wrenching." I would not recommend it for anyone.
As soon as I got in the car I was on the phone to my sister, Linda. I drove right to her house and just let it all out. I am so grateful for sisters.
Even amidst the confusion, pain and utter helplessness, there are small, tender mercies from my Father. He sneaks relief into my heart just as I am certain it will break beyond repair. The fissures close a bit and it makes it possible to find a little hope the next time my heart is rent wide.
Our baby, Ruby started therapy last Thursday. She really likes her therapist and I am confident that we have made a good choice there.
I pray we can be the parents BOTH of our children need. I can't begin to imagine how hard it was for my Father in Heaven to let us go... knowing the mistakes we would make. I can't imagine the pain that I have inflicted on my Savior.
It's funny, how help comes. A friend of mine asked me to help her daughter get ready for an audition and I was thrilled to do so. I made it clear that I was doing this for FUN - not money. Yet, the other day she handed me a thank you gift and a check for $140. That will come in so handy with the many bills and charges being incurred right now.
Once again, we have been reminded of the importance of a full tithe. Somehow, we are going to make it through this. Financially, physically, mentally and mostly Spiritually.
Thank you for not abandoning me.
Reed and I accompanied him to court this morning. Vosco took responsibility for his actions and plead guilty to the charge against him. It was a very difficult day.
I have found that it doesn't matter how many crime dramas you watch on TV, you have NO IDEA what the justice system is like until you experience it firsthand. Reed and I were instructed that we were to sit on either side of Vosco in the courtroom. Also, we were told we cannot touch him in any way while he is in custody.
I walked into the room first. I saw my boy turn and look at me with the most sullen expression on his face. Then I saw them.... shackles. He had handcuffs on with a chain that went down to join another chain that was attached to ankle cuffs. I was not expecting this.... I never know what to expect anymore.
I kept it together for the hearing. I had to consciously hold my hands together so I wouldn't accidentally touch him. I just wanted to hug him and let him know that we love him and that it will all be OK in time. Not today.
As Reed and I left the courtroom the ability to breathe left me... I started to hyperventilate and the tears.... oh boy! Those tears just flew out of my eyes. I completely fell apart! Some people needed to talk to us and we needed to get some paperwork so I had to get it together.
Then I got in the car. I don't think I have cried this hard since I lost my parents! The pain is very real, and you can actually feel the fissures expand in your heart. Finally, I understand the term "gut-wrenching." I would not recommend it for anyone.
As soon as I got in the car I was on the phone to my sister, Linda. I drove right to her house and just let it all out. I am so grateful for sisters.
Even amidst the confusion, pain and utter helplessness, there are small, tender mercies from my Father. He sneaks relief into my heart just as I am certain it will break beyond repair. The fissures close a bit and it makes it possible to find a little hope the next time my heart is rent wide.
Our baby, Ruby started therapy last Thursday. She really likes her therapist and I am confident that we have made a good choice there.
I pray we can be the parents BOTH of our children need. I can't begin to imagine how hard it was for my Father in Heaven to let us go... knowing the mistakes we would make. I can't imagine the pain that I have inflicted on my Savior.
It's funny, how help comes. A friend of mine asked me to help her daughter get ready for an audition and I was thrilled to do so. I made it clear that I was doing this for FUN - not money. Yet, the other day she handed me a thank you gift and a check for $140. That will come in so handy with the many bills and charges being incurred right now.
Once again, we have been reminded of the importance of a full tithe. Somehow, we are going to make it through this. Financially, physically, mentally and mostly Spiritually.
Thank you for not abandoning me.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Blessings come in all packages
I have to say this: Even in your darkest night there are blessings awaiting you. Yep, this has been just about the most difficult and horrendous week I have ever experienced. However, I can't deny the peace I have been given, the love expressed by family and close friends and the immense love from Heavenly Father.
I went to choir rehearsal last night already fatigued and basically spent. I asked for an appointment with President Christensen, (Mr. Mac - the suit guy). I told him everything that had transpired over the last week as well as the history I had been given. He listened quietly. After I was finished, he patted my arm and said, "Your children are so blessed to have parents that love them so completely." I asked him for a blessing and he gave me a beautiful blessing with powerful guidance and promises.
For the first time in days, my heart was at peace. I felt the broken parts heal a bit and have confidence that my Father in Heaven will guide Reed and I through this. I was promised that all those who are chosen to work with our children would be led by the hand of God.
I will not share the very personal details of our family's struggle in such a public forum. Know that we feel your prayers. We feel your love. We feel your support.
This, too, shall pass and our little family unit will be stronger than we ever thought possible. My Father in Heaven sent these little spirits into our home - as well as the challenges that would come with them.
We love you.
I went to choir rehearsal last night already fatigued and basically spent. I asked for an appointment with President Christensen, (Mr. Mac - the suit guy). I told him everything that had transpired over the last week as well as the history I had been given. He listened quietly. After I was finished, he patted my arm and said, "Your children are so blessed to have parents that love them so completely." I asked him for a blessing and he gave me a beautiful blessing with powerful guidance and promises.
For the first time in days, my heart was at peace. I felt the broken parts heal a bit and have confidence that my Father in Heaven will guide Reed and I through this. I was promised that all those who are chosen to work with our children would be led by the hand of God.
I will not share the very personal details of our family's struggle in such a public forum. Know that we feel your prayers. We feel your love. We feel your support.
This, too, shall pass and our little family unit will be stronger than we ever thought possible. My Father in Heaven sent these little spirits into our home - as well as the challenges that would come with them.
We love you.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I don't really know how to write this... I will just do my best. I am not going to give a lot of details.
Vosco has made some serious mistakes - I had NO IDEA about some of them. When I finally did find out, I had to call the authorities. He has been placed in custody at the Youth Detention Center. There is a hearing tomorrow morning.
I don't know what the future holds. I also don't know much more than the aforementioned. I will keep you posted as much as possible.
Please, please keep my little family in your prayers. Ruby and Vosco especially.
Vosco has made some serious mistakes - I had NO IDEA about some of them. When I finally did find out, I had to call the authorities. He has been placed in custody at the Youth Detention Center. There is a hearing tomorrow morning.
I don't know what the future holds. I also don't know much more than the aforementioned. I will keep you posted as much as possible.
Please, please keep my little family in your prayers. Ruby and Vosco especially.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Waiting, even impatiently, is OK
Well, I Finally got the doctor's office to respond. I was told that they goiters are NOT cancerous but that I need to come in every six months to have them checked. If they start to grow at all, they will remove the thyroid.
I am hopeful they will just STOP growing. Just say no and all that...
I am hopeful they will just STOP growing. Just say no and all that...
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Easter Egg Hunt
Ok, here is the story, Morning Glory!
Ruby informed me earlier in the week that we would be hosting a NEIGHBORHOOD Easter Egg Hunt. She gave me a list of about 15 children that would be in attendance. Yesterday I went out and purchased over 12 pounds of candy and over 100 plastic eggs. I figured with the 150 or so we have at home those additional 100 would be about right.
Vosco and I stuffed all the eggs this morning and had some leftover candy, so the Easter Bunny laid some snack bags filled with candy along with the eggs. We hid the eggs all over our yard and in the trees etc.
Ruby had slept over at a friends' house so we called her and told her to get the kids here in 10 minutes. Finally, Ruby and Rachel come up the street.... no other kids.
RUBY HAD "FORGOTTEN" TO INVITE THE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!!!!
They all had other plans. Thus, Ruby, Rachel and Adam collected ALL 12 pounds of candy for THEMSELVES!
The mother was less than pleased.
Ruby informed me earlier in the week that we would be hosting a NEIGHBORHOOD Easter Egg Hunt. She gave me a list of about 15 children that would be in attendance. Yesterday I went out and purchased over 12 pounds of candy and over 100 plastic eggs. I figured with the 150 or so we have at home those additional 100 would be about right.
Vosco and I stuffed all the eggs this morning and had some leftover candy, so the Easter Bunny laid some snack bags filled with candy along with the eggs. We hid the eggs all over our yard and in the trees etc.
Ruby had slept over at a friends' house so we called her and told her to get the kids here in 10 minutes. Finally, Ruby and Rachel come up the street.... no other kids.
RUBY HAD "FORGOTTEN" TO INVITE THE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!!!!
They all had other plans. Thus, Ruby, Rachel and Adam collected ALL 12 pounds of candy for THEMSELVES!
The mother was less than pleased.
Friday, April 10, 2009
No news, Easter and Conference
Well, here it is, Friday and no news from the hospital. Yesterday I went into the hospital at 9:30 to take my "Radioactive Iodine" pills. At 1:45 I went back to the hospital and they checked my radiation levels in my neck and my thigh.... then took some pictures of my thyroid from the front and sides. I returned at 9AM today for some more radiation level checks. This is called a "Thyroid Uptake and Scan." I was REALLY hopeful that the radiologist would have time to read the scans today so I wouldn't have to go through the weekend without any information.
No such luck.
Tomorrow we are hosting an Easter Egg Hunt in our yard for the neighborhood. Ruby informed me the other day that we were doing that. So, I am the official Easter Bunny for about 15 kids! Sweet!
It was so nice to be able to sing in General Conference. These last three months I have been on leave have really made me miss the choir! I wish everyone could experience Conference the way you do when you are in the choir. I can't really explain it.... but to share the stand with all of those leaders is something else. You cannot deny the spirit and its power. You cannot deny the power of the Holy Priesthood when sitting there witnessing this firsthand.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to sing in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Every time I rehearse or perform is another opportunity to bear witness of truth - and I love that!
I miss my cute parents horribly. I would have loved to have been in the choir while my parents were still alive. It would have meant so much to my Mom and Dad to see me doing that work. I know, I know, they can see me now just like they could when they were alive... it is just different. I would have liked to share this experience with them firsthand. You are never old enough to be without your parents.
I had an experience the other day at work. A little second grader told me that his Mommy had died. (She died of a drug overdose...) I told him how very sorry I was for him and told him that I had lost my Mommy, too. A few days later he came up to me and told me that the funeral was really hard. "They made me cry so hard I thought I was going to throw up!", he said. I hugged him tight and told him I was so sorry. I said that if he EVER needed to talk to someone or just to let his frustration out, I would be there for him. I also said that anytime he needed a hug, he could come to me. He looked up at me and said, "Ok, I will probably be back after lunch." He most certainly was..... 7 is just too young to lose a Mommy. I thought it was rough at 28!
No such luck.
Tomorrow we are hosting an Easter Egg Hunt in our yard for the neighborhood. Ruby informed me the other day that we were doing that. So, I am the official Easter Bunny for about 15 kids! Sweet!
It was so nice to be able to sing in General Conference. These last three months I have been on leave have really made me miss the choir! I wish everyone could experience Conference the way you do when you are in the choir. I can't really explain it.... but to share the stand with all of those leaders is something else. You cannot deny the spirit and its power. You cannot deny the power of the Holy Priesthood when sitting there witnessing this firsthand.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to sing in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Every time I rehearse or perform is another opportunity to bear witness of truth - and I love that!
I miss my cute parents horribly. I would have loved to have been in the choir while my parents were still alive. It would have meant so much to my Mom and Dad to see me doing that work. I know, I know, they can see me now just like they could when they were alive... it is just different. I would have liked to share this experience with them firsthand. You are never old enough to be without your parents.
I had an experience the other day at work. A little second grader told me that his Mommy had died. (She died of a drug overdose...) I told him how very sorry I was for him and told him that I had lost my Mommy, too. A few days later he came up to me and told me that the funeral was really hard. "They made me cry so hard I thought I was going to throw up!", he said. I hugged him tight and told him I was so sorry. I said that if he EVER needed to talk to someone or just to let his frustration out, I would be there for him. I also said that anytime he needed a hug, he could come to me. He looked up at me and said, "Ok, I will probably be back after lunch." He most certainly was..... 7 is just too young to lose a Mommy. I thought it was rough at 28!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Yearly Physical
Hello All,
Last Friday was time for my yearly physical which I haven't had for about 10 years. During the physical the doctor told me that she wanted me to have my thyroid checked because she felt some nodules on it.
I went in for an ultra-sound today. About two hours after my appointment my doctor called with the results. I have "Multinodular Goiters" and an enlarged thyroid. On my right side there is a nodule that is over 2cm in size that is different than the rest. They will do some sort of biopsy and then a scan to determine what the heck is going on there. Hopefully that will happen next week while we are in Spring Break.
The doctor told me not to worry too much. Rarely has she seen these turn out to be malignant. Of course, I would have felt better if she had said she had NEVER seen them be malignant but that is unrealistic.
If they are all benign they will just leave things as they are and watch the nodules for additional growth. At some point they can grow to the point that they impede the ability to swallow and then surgery is the only option. My only concern with surgery is that the nerves that control the vocal cords is dangerously close to the thyroid and it is at HUGE risk for damage during that procedure.
When my sister, Linda was 47 she had to have her thyroid removed because of the same thing. Her singing voice has never recovered. Although there are MANY worse things than losing the ability to sing, I don't relish the thought.
Anyway, that is the latest and greatest. Look for me on the back row in the left section of the choir during General Conference. I will be in the aisle seat!
Last Friday was time for my yearly physical which I haven't had for about 10 years. During the physical the doctor told me that she wanted me to have my thyroid checked because she felt some nodules on it.
I went in for an ultra-sound today. About two hours after my appointment my doctor called with the results. I have "Multinodular Goiters" and an enlarged thyroid. On my right side there is a nodule that is over 2cm in size that is different than the rest. They will do some sort of biopsy and then a scan to determine what the heck is going on there. Hopefully that will happen next week while we are in Spring Break.
The doctor told me not to worry too much. Rarely has she seen these turn out to be malignant. Of course, I would have felt better if she had said she had NEVER seen them be malignant but that is unrealistic.
If they are all benign they will just leave things as they are and watch the nodules for additional growth. At some point they can grow to the point that they impede the ability to swallow and then surgery is the only option. My only concern with surgery is that the nerves that control the vocal cords is dangerously close to the thyroid and it is at HUGE risk for damage during that procedure.
When my sister, Linda was 47 she had to have her thyroid removed because of the same thing. Her singing voice has never recovered. Although there are MANY worse things than losing the ability to sing, I don't relish the thought.
Anyway, that is the latest and greatest. Look for me on the back row in the left section of the choir during General Conference. I will be in the aisle seat!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Vosco
I just realized that I never caught you up on the situation with Vosco!
He came home the following Tuesday saying, "I NEVER want to go back there AGAIN!"
Things have improved and I think it was a good wake up call for him to spend a few days there again. He is such a good boy, just struggles with life!
Thank you for your constant prayer and faith. We wouldn't be able to survive without your love and support.
Edye
He came home the following Tuesday saying, "I NEVER want to go back there AGAIN!"
Things have improved and I think it was a good wake up call for him to spend a few days there again. He is such a good boy, just struggles with life!
Thank you for your constant prayer and faith. We wouldn't be able to survive without your love and support.
Edye
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I am SOOOO excited!!! Our nephew, Adam and his family are coming to see us tomorrow! I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE COME TO STAY!!!!! I get to see their kids and hug them and kiss them and maybe even pinch them! SWEET! I will post pictures as soon as they are taken.
Thank you, Adam and Emily for gracing us with your presence!
Thank you, Adam and Emily for gracing us with your presence!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Sad day in the Wagstaff house
Vosco has been digressing these last few weeks. His behaviour and attitude necessitated our returning him to West Ridge Academy for a "tune-up." Hopefully he will only be there through Tuesday but we will just have to wait and see.
Any prayers in his/our behalf would be very welcomed.
Any prayers in his/our behalf would be very welcomed.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Aubrey Tagged me!
1) I Love the smell of fresh laundry after it has dried on the line outside.
2) I have very little patience for my own shortcomings.
3) I love to eat Cheeto's and M&M's - together.
4) My kids make me laugh every day - HUGE BLESSING!
5) I used to collect pigs but pared the collection down to about 15 a few years ago.
6) I want to go on a cruise somewhere warm REALLY BADLY!
7) I truly believe I COULD live on bread alone....
2) I have very little patience for my own shortcomings.
3) I love to eat Cheeto's and M&M's - together.
4) My kids make me laugh every day - HUGE BLESSING!
5) I used to collect pigs but pared the collection down to about 15 a few years ago.
6) I want to go on a cruise somewhere warm REALLY BADLY!
7) I truly believe I COULD live on bread alone....
Friday, March 6, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
So, it wasn't the knee that was the huge problem after all.....
Oh Joy, Oh Rapture! NOT!!!!! After not getting any sleep (literally) for about two weeks I called my doctor. My left leg has felt as though it is on fire along with near constant threat of charlie horses from hip to heel. My doctor immediately told me to call a "physiatrist" for an evaluation.
Yesterday he did some pretty extensive physical testing and determined that my L4 and L5 discs are bulging on the left side. He said that this kind of injury takes an average of 12 weeks to heal. YIPPEE!!!!!
He gave me Prednisone for swelling of the disc and pain meds to help control the pain. I finally slept last night. Now that I actually slept through the night I don't want to get up..... Sheesh, I am NEVER happy, am I? ;-)
I go back to the doc in two weeks to see if the symptoms have been reduced. If not, they will do an MRI to determine if surgery is needed. If it is, that is at least three weeks off my feet. So, that won't happen till June if necessary.
Yesterday he did some pretty extensive physical testing and determined that my L4 and L5 discs are bulging on the left side. He said that this kind of injury takes an average of 12 weeks to heal. YIPPEE!!!!!
He gave me Prednisone for swelling of the disc and pain meds to help control the pain. I finally slept last night. Now that I actually slept through the night I don't want to get up..... Sheesh, I am NEVER happy, am I? ;-)
I go back to the doc in two weeks to see if the symptoms have been reduced. If not, they will do an MRI to determine if surgery is needed. If it is, that is at least three weeks off my feet. So, that won't happen till June if necessary.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Reed's 50th Birthday Party
Annie and Hayley Wellings
Laurie Jackson
The Spread! We had Funeral Potatoes, Ham, Rolls, Jell-O Salad and basically everything that goes with a "funeral" meal. We are a bit sick and twisted. I really tried not to be too mean... after all he has 6 years to conjure up my 50th birthday demise.
The McMurdie's (poor Anna just had her Gall Bladder out!)
Friday, February 27, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
We just finished painting Ruby's room. Well, finished is a bit wrong. Actually, we need to put the chair rail up and then finish cutting in the ceiling. Reed will be putting in the new floor during the next week. Her room is something I dreamed about as a kid - I was so surprised she chose the same colors I would have at her age. Pink, Pink and blue.
Ruby chose a really cute ceiling fan that is pink and white. Such a girly girl room! I am so glad we are able to do this for her. It makes me so happy to see her happy.
I just got a new game that I LOVE! IT is the first game I have purchased that I WILL NOT let anyone else play. Laura Croft Tomb Raider Anniversary Edition. SO MUCH FUN! I had only played it on the XBOX so the Wii controls are kind of weird to me, but I am getting used to it. Once I beat the game others can play - I am not TOTALLY unreasonable.
Ruby chose a really cute ceiling fan that is pink and white. Such a girly girl room! I am so glad we are able to do this for her. It makes me so happy to see her happy.
I just got a new game that I LOVE! IT is the first game I have purchased that I WILL NOT let anyone else play. Laura Croft Tomb Raider Anniversary Edition. SO MUCH FUN! I had only played it on the XBOX so the Wii controls are kind of weird to me, but I am getting used to it. Once I beat the game others can play - I am not TOTALLY unreasonable.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
No Choir Tour For Me
Well, here's the latest. I had to know RIGHT NOW if my knee would be up to the challenge of choir tour 2009. Since there is no guarantee the surgery was successful for several months, I have withdrawn from the MoTab Choir tour.
This makes me sad on several fronts, but mostly because I was going to have the opportunity to meet a niece I haven't met before.
For those who don't know: My cute Mom put a baby up for adoption in 1947. Long story. In 2001 my sister, Linda Bingham, found us! Miraculously, she lives here in Kaysville, just about 8 blocks from me! Her daughter just moved to the St. Louis area and we have never had the opportunity to meet. This summer would have been our first.
Anyway, I just wanted to keep you posted. I appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers.
This makes me sad on several fronts, but mostly because I was going to have the opportunity to meet a niece I haven't met before.
For those who don't know: My cute Mom put a baby up for adoption in 1947. Long story. In 2001 my sister, Linda Bingham, found us! Miraculously, she lives here in Kaysville, just about 8 blocks from me! Her daughter just moved to the St. Louis area and we have never had the opportunity to meet. This summer would have been our first.
Anyway, I just wanted to keep you posted. I appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Reed's 50th Birthday
Reed's turning 50!!! I need great ideas for his birthday par-tay. Please submit in writing....
Friday, January 30, 2009
The Calls
Reed and I have seen many blessings in our marriage. We have been challenged but with every challenge came a greater understanding of our Father in Heaven and His hand in our lives.
When Reed and I discovered that having our own children wasn't in the cards for us, we immediately considered adoption. Just seven weeks from our first investigative phone call we had our little boy in our home. It was providence. As we held that little guy in our arms we knew that the name we had chosen was perfect. We named him after Vosco Call and my Daddy, Neal Isaacson. Both of those names hold strength, power and integrity behind them.
As new parents, we wanted to give our baby the best life we could. We wanted his name to be a constant reminder of the qualities we hoped to instill in his life. Love of art, literature, nature, creativity, education, integrity, honesty, fabulous work ethic, honor and diligence are just a few of the traits we admire in these men we named him for.
Vosco and Ruth Call have been cornerstones in theatre forever! We have known and loved them for nearly 20 years. This last summer I had the opportunity to work with their son, Richard in a production of "Chaps" at the Old Lyric Repertory Company in Logan.
Right now, Richard is fighting a new fight. Cancer. Although they live in Burley, Idaho his treatments have to happen down here in Salt Lake City. We are honored to have Richard and Sayda stay with us during his treatment. I wish everyone could see the love these two have for each other and their family. It emanates from them in a tangible way. Our whole family has been blessed beyond description having them in our home.
Yesterday Sayda made dinner for us. Who knew that enchiladas could be THE BEST FOOD ON EARTH???? Oh....... My..... Goodness! I was SO sad to see the last of them disappear as I ate them for lunch....
I just wanted to say, "Thank You" to Richard and Sayda. The spirit they bring into our home is something our little family will cherish forever. We love you two!
When Reed and I discovered that having our own children wasn't in the cards for us, we immediately considered adoption. Just seven weeks from our first investigative phone call we had our little boy in our home. It was providence. As we held that little guy in our arms we knew that the name we had chosen was perfect. We named him after Vosco Call and my Daddy, Neal Isaacson. Both of those names hold strength, power and integrity behind them.
As new parents, we wanted to give our baby the best life we could. We wanted his name to be a constant reminder of the qualities we hoped to instill in his life. Love of art, literature, nature, creativity, education, integrity, honesty, fabulous work ethic, honor and diligence are just a few of the traits we admire in these men we named him for.
Vosco and Ruth Call have been cornerstones in theatre forever! We have known and loved them for nearly 20 years. This last summer I had the opportunity to work with their son, Richard in a production of "Chaps" at the Old Lyric Repertory Company in Logan.
Right now, Richard is fighting a new fight. Cancer. Although they live in Burley, Idaho his treatments have to happen down here in Salt Lake City. We are honored to have Richard and Sayda stay with us during his treatment. I wish everyone could see the love these two have for each other and their family. It emanates from them in a tangible way. Our whole family has been blessed beyond description having them in our home.
Yesterday Sayda made dinner for us. Who knew that enchiladas could be THE BEST FOOD ON EARTH???? Oh....... My..... Goodness! I was SO sad to see the last of them disappear as I ate them for lunch....
I just wanted to say, "Thank You" to Richard and Sayda. The spirit they bring into our home is something our little family will cherish forever. We love you two!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Knees, knees, KNEES!
As many of you know, I had a lateral release and a meniscusectomy on my left knee. For the first two weeks everything was wonderful. Then as I was innocently walking down the hall of my home it felt like a hundred knives had been shoved into my knee joint. At that point all of the muscles above and below my knee constricted into what can only be called a hellish ball of flesh invisibly consumed by flame. Yup, SO FUN!
After three weeks of trying to get my doctor's office to return my calls I went to my previously scheduled follow up appointment. He told me that this kind of surgery takes several months to heal completely and get the muscle control to support the new position of the knee cap. Further, he explained that the knee cap will move back and forth a bit, falling out of the groove of the joint. When that happens the bones grind and it is excruciatingly painful. That makes sense to me, since it has been happening several times a day for the last few weeks.
I am very concerned that it may not be strong enough for me to endure the long hours of tour with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir and the extensive walking it requires. He told me that if it isn't in tip top shape by June he will give me a shot of cortisone to help me through the tour. Following tour I would have a total knee replacement.
I guess what I am asking is this: Please pray for me. I do not want to have another total knee yet. I desperately want this procedure to work for a few years. I want to be able to fulfill my calling in the choir without the distraction that pain presents.
I know that my problems are so small compared to the vast challenges faced by others. Honestly, I am grateful to have only the problems I have!
Edye
After three weeks of trying to get my doctor's office to return my calls I went to my previously scheduled follow up appointment. He told me that this kind of surgery takes several months to heal completely and get the muscle control to support the new position of the knee cap. Further, he explained that the knee cap will move back and forth a bit, falling out of the groove of the joint. When that happens the bones grind and it is excruciatingly painful. That makes sense to me, since it has been happening several times a day for the last few weeks.
I am very concerned that it may not be strong enough for me to endure the long hours of tour with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir and the extensive walking it requires. He told me that if it isn't in tip top shape by June he will give me a shot of cortisone to help me through the tour. Following tour I would have a total knee replacement.
I guess what I am asking is this: Please pray for me. I do not want to have another total knee yet. I desperately want this procedure to work for a few years. I want to be able to fulfill my calling in the choir without the distraction that pain presents.
I know that my problems are so small compared to the vast challenges faced by others. Honestly, I am grateful to have only the problems I have!
Edye
Friday, January 23, 2009
Mormon Tabernacle Choir Tickets on sale!
Choir Summer Tour Tickets on Sale; Going Fast
With 2009 in full swing, the Choir and Orchestra are busily preparing for another year full of concerts, recordings, weekly broadcasts and this year, the Central States Tour.
The 13-day trip across the heartland of America will feature concerts at some of the most celebrated venues in the country including the Riverbend Music Festival with Erich Kunzel and the Cincinnati Pops and the Red Rocks Amphitheater outside of Denver. In addition, the Choir will perform at venues in St. Louis, Des Moines, Omaha and Norman, Oklahoma. The Choir will perform seven concerts during their trip, making it a busy and demanding tour.
“Each tour brings its own challenges and its own blessings,” says Mack Wilberg, Music Director of the Choir. “For this tour, we’ve decided to include some new repertoire in addition to the hymns, classical works and patriotic numbers that always have a place on the program. My hope is that we can introduce audiences to some great music while still singing pieces like ‘Battle Hymn of the Republic’ and ‘Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.’ It should be a wonderful concert.”
In addition to some new and varied music, the Choir will also feature a number of arrangements from its new album entitled Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing: American Folk Hymns and Spirituals. The album features all four of Mack Wilberg’s American Folk Hymns series on one album and other favorites such as “Battle of Jericho” and an inspirational rendition of “I Want Jesus to Walk with Me,” with soloist Alex Boyé. Each concert on the Choir and Orchestra’s 2009 tour is sure to be a memorable evening of uplifting music, something not to miss.
Tickets for the concerts are still available through the box office or through on-line ticket outlets such as Ticketmaster.com. For more information on how to obtain tickets and to see the details of the 2009 tour locations, visit mormontabernaclechoir.org
With 2009 in full swing, the Choir and Orchestra are busily preparing for another year full of concerts, recordings, weekly broadcasts and this year, the Central States Tour.
The 13-day trip across the heartland of America will feature concerts at some of the most celebrated venues in the country including the Riverbend Music Festival with Erich Kunzel and the Cincinnati Pops and the Red Rocks Amphitheater outside of Denver. In addition, the Choir will perform at venues in St. Louis, Des Moines, Omaha and Norman, Oklahoma. The Choir will perform seven concerts during their trip, making it a busy and demanding tour.
“Each tour brings its own challenges and its own blessings,” says Mack Wilberg, Music Director of the Choir. “For this tour, we’ve decided to include some new repertoire in addition to the hymns, classical works and patriotic numbers that always have a place on the program. My hope is that we can introduce audiences to some great music while still singing pieces like ‘Battle Hymn of the Republic’ and ‘Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.’ It should be a wonderful concert.”
In addition to some new and varied music, the Choir will also feature a number of arrangements from its new album entitled Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing: American Folk Hymns and Spirituals. The album features all four of Mack Wilberg’s American Folk Hymns series on one album and other favorites such as “Battle of Jericho” and an inspirational rendition of “I Want Jesus to Walk with Me,” with soloist Alex Boyé. Each concert on the Choir and Orchestra’s 2009 tour is sure to be a memorable evening of uplifting music, something not to miss.
Tickets for the concerts are still available through the box office or through on-line ticket outlets such as Ticketmaster.com. For more information on how to obtain tickets and to see the details of the 2009 tour locations, visit mormontabernaclechoir.org
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I just have to brag for a little minute. My son, Vosco has been attending school in a Learning Center so the class is smaller and distractions are few. His grades and behavior has improved so much over the last semester that he is mainstreaming in two classes this semester! His first day went without incident and he was SO EXCITED to tell me all about the day.
Vosco has always had a passion for cars. From the age of two he could see a picture of an engine part in its exploded form on the page of a technical manual and turn around an identify the part in its whole form inside the engine. I have always been amazed by that talent and am still amazed as we drive down the road and he recognizes cars and trucks for their make and model with uncanny accuracy.
One of his classes is Art 1!!! He is thrilled to be able to learn about art and is looking forward to "getting his hands dirty!"
I just can't explain the blessings we have seen in our family the last year and a half. I love my kids so much. My life would be very dull without them!
Vosco has always had a passion for cars. From the age of two he could see a picture of an engine part in its exploded form on the page of a technical manual and turn around an identify the part in its whole form inside the engine. I have always been amazed by that talent and am still amazed as we drive down the road and he recognizes cars and trucks for their make and model with uncanny accuracy.
One of his classes is Art 1!!! He is thrilled to be able to learn about art and is looking forward to "getting his hands dirty!"
I just can't explain the blessings we have seen in our family the last year and a half. I love my kids so much. My life would be very dull without them!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Today is Sunday. I have had a very full heart today. As I look at my life and the blessings my Father in Heaven has extended I am amazed.
I am grateful to live in the United States. I am grateful for freedom. Although I have never had the opportunity to visit or reside in a country that isn't "free" I have a deep gratitude for mine. I am grateful for the many lives that have been given so my family, and yours, can enjoy that freedom.
I am grateful for the knowledge that we all have a loving Father in Heaven. I look at my children and wonder how we have been entrusted with these delicate and precious little spirits. It really is true that we experience greater depth of love and understanding as we endure the challenges of our life.
Many of you know of the difficulties we have had with our son, Vosco. I look over the last several years and my heart aches because of the many mistakes we have made as his parents. At the same time, my heart rejoices at the growth we have experienced as we received much needed help from West Ridge Academy. For those of you who haven't seen or been around Vosco in the last few years, you will be amazed at his growth and his ability to adapt! He is truly a joy to be with. I pray that the mistakes of my past and present will not impede his continued growth and strength as a child of God.
As the song says, "When the wind will set me racing as my journey nears its end, and the path I'll be retracing when I'm homeward bound again. Bind me not to the pasture, chain me not to the plow, set me free to find my calling... and I'll return to you somehow." That really is our goal. To overcome the natural man, the influence of our environment and return to our Father at the end of that journey. It is my prayer that I can be the mother that leads the way for my children... not the mother that holds them back from growth and increased faith.
I am grateful to live in the United States. I am grateful for freedom. Although I have never had the opportunity to visit or reside in a country that isn't "free" I have a deep gratitude for mine. I am grateful for the many lives that have been given so my family, and yours, can enjoy that freedom.
I am grateful for the knowledge that we all have a loving Father in Heaven. I look at my children and wonder how we have been entrusted with these delicate and precious little spirits. It really is true that we experience greater depth of love and understanding as we endure the challenges of our life.
Many of you know of the difficulties we have had with our son, Vosco. I look over the last several years and my heart aches because of the many mistakes we have made as his parents. At the same time, my heart rejoices at the growth we have experienced as we received much needed help from West Ridge Academy. For those of you who haven't seen or been around Vosco in the last few years, you will be amazed at his growth and his ability to adapt! He is truly a joy to be with. I pray that the mistakes of my past and present will not impede his continued growth and strength as a child of God.
As the song says, "When the wind will set me racing as my journey nears its end, and the path I'll be retracing when I'm homeward bound again. Bind me not to the pasture, chain me not to the plow, set me free to find my calling... and I'll return to you somehow." That really is our goal. To overcome the natural man, the influence of our environment and return to our Father at the end of that journey. It is my prayer that I can be the mother that leads the way for my children... not the mother that holds them back from growth and increased faith.
Homeward Bound
Sayda taped this the other night and since it is one of my favorite songs, I thought I would post it here as well....
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Kids.....
Reed and I feel so blessed..... we live in a great neighborhood with wonderful neighbors and most of all, have a great home where the door is always "open".
Tonight we have been laughing SO HARD!!!! Aubrey Call and Ruby have been playing all night. They have giggled, chased, giggled some more and thrown smart remarks back and forth to each other.
Sayda, Richard and I have just laughed and laughed at their antics. Add a little Amanda Ewan and the laughter escalates to gigantic proportions!
I will post some pictures of these crazy kids tomorrow.... wish you all were here to laugh with us.
Tonight we have been laughing SO HARD!!!! Aubrey Call and Ruby have been playing all night. They have giggled, chased, giggled some more and thrown smart remarks back and forth to each other.
Sayda, Richard and I have just laughed and laughed at their antics. Add a little Amanda Ewan and the laughter escalates to gigantic proportions!
I will post some pictures of these crazy kids tomorrow.... wish you all were here to laugh with us.
Friday, January 16, 2009
We had the best Fourth of July EVER in 2008. I was in Logan working on a show and Reed picked me up with the kids and 7 pug puppies, the Mommy pug and another Sister pug.... Yup, you read that right. Reed, Edye, Vosco, Ruby and 9 pugs.
We were able to spend the time with the Isaacson families and the Marchant families as well! There were about 2,000,000 people in the house. Utter love and chaos all wrapped into one weekend.
I had never been at a fourth of July when normal citizens could buy HUGE fireworks. Every back yard was like a major fireworks show. I was completely amazed.
We were able to spend the time with the Isaacson families and the Marchant families as well! There were about 2,000,000 people in the house. Utter love and chaos all wrapped into one weekend.
I had never been at a fourth of July when normal citizens could buy HUGE fireworks. Every back yard was like a major fireworks show. I was completely amazed.
Things in the Wagstaff Household have been busy. I am currently on leave from the Mormon Tabernacle Choir while I recuperate from surgery.
Vosco is in the 8th grade and is pulling all A's and B's. This is a complete MIRACLE! It has been so nice to have him see success in the school environment. Such an answer to prayer. Actually, answer to about a million prayers.
Ruby is in the 3rd grade. Hmmm, how do we describe Ruby? Diva? Adorable? Hilarious? Pain in Vosco's rear? Yup, that works. She is also doing very well in school. Somehow, she is just like me - talks too much in class. You would think she was genetically ours. Heavenly Father makes certain the Grandmother's curse happens even through adoption. ;-)
Reed and I are preparing to play piano in the pit of Layton High School's production of "Showboat" that will open in March. I absolutely love doing things like this with my husband. Since we have moved to SLC we haven't been able to do this nearly as much as we would like.
Probably the biggest thing in our life right now is that our very dear friend, Richard Call is receiving treatment for cancer at the Huntsman Cancer Institute. We feel blessed to be able to offer a bed and some "home environment" while he is away from his own home. The Call family has always been family to us and we are grateful they are willing to stay with us during this difficult time. If there is ANYONE who can make it through this, Richard can. Please include him in your prayers.
Vosco is in the 8th grade and is pulling all A's and B's. This is a complete MIRACLE! It has been so nice to have him see success in the school environment. Such an answer to prayer. Actually, answer to about a million prayers.
Ruby is in the 3rd grade. Hmmm, how do we describe Ruby? Diva? Adorable? Hilarious? Pain in Vosco's rear? Yup, that works. She is also doing very well in school. Somehow, she is just like me - talks too much in class. You would think she was genetically ours. Heavenly Father makes certain the Grandmother's curse happens even through adoption. ;-)
Reed and I are preparing to play piano in the pit of Layton High School's production of "Showboat" that will open in March. I absolutely love doing things like this with my husband. Since we have moved to SLC we haven't been able to do this nearly as much as we would like.
Probably the biggest thing in our life right now is that our very dear friend, Richard Call is receiving treatment for cancer at the Huntsman Cancer Institute. We feel blessed to be able to offer a bed and some "home environment" while he is away from his own home. The Call family has always been family to us and we are grateful they are willing to stay with us during this difficult time. If there is ANYONE who can make it through this, Richard can. Please include him in your prayers.
Trying to blog as a lifestyle.....
Ok, so everyone I know has a really tweaked out blog and it is time for Edye to join the parade.
I will be doing some updating at least once a week... in hopes of catching up with my life.
I will be doing some updating at least once a week... in hopes of catching up with my life.
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