I have to say this: Even in your darkest night there are blessings awaiting you. Yep, this has been just about the most difficult and horrendous week I have ever experienced. However, I can't deny the peace I have been given, the love expressed by family and close friends and the immense love from Heavenly Father.
I went to choir rehearsal last night already fatigued and basically spent. I asked for an appointment with President Christensen, (Mr. Mac - the suit guy). I told him everything that had transpired over the last week as well as the history I had been given. He listened quietly. After I was finished, he patted my arm and said, "Your children are so blessed to have parents that love them so completely." I asked him for a blessing and he gave me a beautiful blessing with powerful guidance and promises.
For the first time in days, my heart was at peace. I felt the broken parts heal a bit and have confidence that my Father in Heaven will guide Reed and I through this. I was promised that all those who are chosen to work with our children would be led by the hand of God.
I will not share the very personal details of our family's struggle in such a public forum. Know that we feel your prayers. We feel your love. We feel your support.
This, too, shall pass and our little family unit will be stronger than we ever thought possible. My Father in Heaven sent these little spirits into our home - as well as the challenges that would come with them.
We love you.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I don't really know how to write this... I will just do my best. I am not going to give a lot of details.
Vosco has made some serious mistakes - I had NO IDEA about some of them. When I finally did find out, I had to call the authorities. He has been placed in custody at the Youth Detention Center. There is a hearing tomorrow morning.
I don't know what the future holds. I also don't know much more than the aforementioned. I will keep you posted as much as possible.
Please, please keep my little family in your prayers. Ruby and Vosco especially.
Vosco has made some serious mistakes - I had NO IDEA about some of them. When I finally did find out, I had to call the authorities. He has been placed in custody at the Youth Detention Center. There is a hearing tomorrow morning.
I don't know what the future holds. I also don't know much more than the aforementioned. I will keep you posted as much as possible.
Please, please keep my little family in your prayers. Ruby and Vosco especially.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Waiting, even impatiently, is OK
Well, I Finally got the doctor's office to respond. I was told that they goiters are NOT cancerous but that I need to come in every six months to have them checked. If they start to grow at all, they will remove the thyroid.
I am hopeful they will just STOP growing. Just say no and all that...
I am hopeful they will just STOP growing. Just say no and all that...
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Easter Egg Hunt
Ok, here is the story, Morning Glory!
Ruby informed me earlier in the week that we would be hosting a NEIGHBORHOOD Easter Egg Hunt. She gave me a list of about 15 children that would be in attendance. Yesterday I went out and purchased over 12 pounds of candy and over 100 plastic eggs. I figured with the 150 or so we have at home those additional 100 would be about right.
Vosco and I stuffed all the eggs this morning and had some leftover candy, so the Easter Bunny laid some snack bags filled with candy along with the eggs. We hid the eggs all over our yard and in the trees etc.
Ruby had slept over at a friends' house so we called her and told her to get the kids here in 10 minutes. Finally, Ruby and Rachel come up the street.... no other kids.
RUBY HAD "FORGOTTEN" TO INVITE THE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!!!!
They all had other plans. Thus, Ruby, Rachel and Adam collected ALL 12 pounds of candy for THEMSELVES!
The mother was less than pleased.
Ruby informed me earlier in the week that we would be hosting a NEIGHBORHOOD Easter Egg Hunt. She gave me a list of about 15 children that would be in attendance. Yesterday I went out and purchased over 12 pounds of candy and over 100 plastic eggs. I figured with the 150 or so we have at home those additional 100 would be about right.
Vosco and I stuffed all the eggs this morning and had some leftover candy, so the Easter Bunny laid some snack bags filled with candy along with the eggs. We hid the eggs all over our yard and in the trees etc.
Ruby had slept over at a friends' house so we called her and told her to get the kids here in 10 minutes. Finally, Ruby and Rachel come up the street.... no other kids.
RUBY HAD "FORGOTTEN" TO INVITE THE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!!!!
They all had other plans. Thus, Ruby, Rachel and Adam collected ALL 12 pounds of candy for THEMSELVES!
The mother was less than pleased.
Friday, April 10, 2009
No news, Easter and Conference
Well, here it is, Friday and no news from the hospital. Yesterday I went into the hospital at 9:30 to take my "Radioactive Iodine" pills. At 1:45 I went back to the hospital and they checked my radiation levels in my neck and my thigh.... then took some pictures of my thyroid from the front and sides. I returned at 9AM today for some more radiation level checks. This is called a "Thyroid Uptake and Scan." I was REALLY hopeful that the radiologist would have time to read the scans today so I wouldn't have to go through the weekend without any information.
No such luck.
Tomorrow we are hosting an Easter Egg Hunt in our yard for the neighborhood. Ruby informed me the other day that we were doing that. So, I am the official Easter Bunny for about 15 kids! Sweet!
It was so nice to be able to sing in General Conference. These last three months I have been on leave have really made me miss the choir! I wish everyone could experience Conference the way you do when you are in the choir. I can't really explain it.... but to share the stand with all of those leaders is something else. You cannot deny the spirit and its power. You cannot deny the power of the Holy Priesthood when sitting there witnessing this firsthand.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to sing in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Every time I rehearse or perform is another opportunity to bear witness of truth - and I love that!
I miss my cute parents horribly. I would have loved to have been in the choir while my parents were still alive. It would have meant so much to my Mom and Dad to see me doing that work. I know, I know, they can see me now just like they could when they were alive... it is just different. I would have liked to share this experience with them firsthand. You are never old enough to be without your parents.
I had an experience the other day at work. A little second grader told me that his Mommy had died. (She died of a drug overdose...) I told him how very sorry I was for him and told him that I had lost my Mommy, too. A few days later he came up to me and told me that the funeral was really hard. "They made me cry so hard I thought I was going to throw up!", he said. I hugged him tight and told him I was so sorry. I said that if he EVER needed to talk to someone or just to let his frustration out, I would be there for him. I also said that anytime he needed a hug, he could come to me. He looked up at me and said, "Ok, I will probably be back after lunch." He most certainly was..... 7 is just too young to lose a Mommy. I thought it was rough at 28!
No such luck.
Tomorrow we are hosting an Easter Egg Hunt in our yard for the neighborhood. Ruby informed me the other day that we were doing that. So, I am the official Easter Bunny for about 15 kids! Sweet!
It was so nice to be able to sing in General Conference. These last three months I have been on leave have really made me miss the choir! I wish everyone could experience Conference the way you do when you are in the choir. I can't really explain it.... but to share the stand with all of those leaders is something else. You cannot deny the spirit and its power. You cannot deny the power of the Holy Priesthood when sitting there witnessing this firsthand.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to sing in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Every time I rehearse or perform is another opportunity to bear witness of truth - and I love that!
I miss my cute parents horribly. I would have loved to have been in the choir while my parents were still alive. It would have meant so much to my Mom and Dad to see me doing that work. I know, I know, they can see me now just like they could when they were alive... it is just different. I would have liked to share this experience with them firsthand. You are never old enough to be without your parents.
I had an experience the other day at work. A little second grader told me that his Mommy had died. (She died of a drug overdose...) I told him how very sorry I was for him and told him that I had lost my Mommy, too. A few days later he came up to me and told me that the funeral was really hard. "They made me cry so hard I thought I was going to throw up!", he said. I hugged him tight and told him I was so sorry. I said that if he EVER needed to talk to someone or just to let his frustration out, I would be there for him. I also said that anytime he needed a hug, he could come to me. He looked up at me and said, "Ok, I will probably be back after lunch." He most certainly was..... 7 is just too young to lose a Mommy. I thought it was rough at 28!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Yearly Physical
Hello All,
Last Friday was time for my yearly physical which I haven't had for about 10 years. During the physical the doctor told me that she wanted me to have my thyroid checked because she felt some nodules on it.
I went in for an ultra-sound today. About two hours after my appointment my doctor called with the results. I have "Multinodular Goiters" and an enlarged thyroid. On my right side there is a nodule that is over 2cm in size that is different than the rest. They will do some sort of biopsy and then a scan to determine what the heck is going on there. Hopefully that will happen next week while we are in Spring Break.
The doctor told me not to worry too much. Rarely has she seen these turn out to be malignant. Of course, I would have felt better if she had said she had NEVER seen them be malignant but that is unrealistic.
If they are all benign they will just leave things as they are and watch the nodules for additional growth. At some point they can grow to the point that they impede the ability to swallow and then surgery is the only option. My only concern with surgery is that the nerves that control the vocal cords is dangerously close to the thyroid and it is at HUGE risk for damage during that procedure.
When my sister, Linda was 47 she had to have her thyroid removed because of the same thing. Her singing voice has never recovered. Although there are MANY worse things than losing the ability to sing, I don't relish the thought.
Anyway, that is the latest and greatest. Look for me on the back row in the left section of the choir during General Conference. I will be in the aisle seat!
Last Friday was time for my yearly physical which I haven't had for about 10 years. During the physical the doctor told me that she wanted me to have my thyroid checked because she felt some nodules on it.
I went in for an ultra-sound today. About two hours after my appointment my doctor called with the results. I have "Multinodular Goiters" and an enlarged thyroid. On my right side there is a nodule that is over 2cm in size that is different than the rest. They will do some sort of biopsy and then a scan to determine what the heck is going on there. Hopefully that will happen next week while we are in Spring Break.
The doctor told me not to worry too much. Rarely has she seen these turn out to be malignant. Of course, I would have felt better if she had said she had NEVER seen them be malignant but that is unrealistic.
If they are all benign they will just leave things as they are and watch the nodules for additional growth. At some point they can grow to the point that they impede the ability to swallow and then surgery is the only option. My only concern with surgery is that the nerves that control the vocal cords is dangerously close to the thyroid and it is at HUGE risk for damage during that procedure.
When my sister, Linda was 47 she had to have her thyroid removed because of the same thing. Her singing voice has never recovered. Although there are MANY worse things than losing the ability to sing, I don't relish the thought.
Anyway, that is the latest and greatest. Look for me on the back row in the left section of the choir during General Conference. I will be in the aisle seat!
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