Any of you who really know me, know that when life gets difficult, I do a show. I know, working in theatre can be stressful in an of itself. However, it is a stress I can actually CONTROL! I run the rehearsals (musically, anyway) and when in rehearsal I am like a man - SINGLE MINDED!!! NOTHING enters my mind during the rehearsal hours except the show.

Well??? My production of Seussical the Musical opens on Monday. Whew! I started rehearsing You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown last week for the Old Lyric Repertory Company. Thus, I am adequately 'distracted.'

There are a few things that seep through the rehearsal barrier. One such thing happened today.

During my 25 minute break at school I often go into the office because I find the office personnel rather comical. Four of these ladies have sons who are either about to leave or have very recently left to serve a mission for the LDS Church. It has been fun for me to watch them get ready to send their 'little boys' off into the mission-field. None of these ladies have served a mission so they really don't know what is in store for those boys, but they are nervous and scared for them.

Today, their conversation revolved around how hard it is for them right now. They just don't know how they are going to survive without their boys. They complained about how difficult it was to see them go into the MTC. They mourned the fact that they couldn't go farther than security in the airport when their little boys left for their areas of service. They were so SAAAAAD because of all of the above.

Frankly, I wanted to slap them. Do you have any idea how thrilled I would be to be able to send my child on a mission?!?!?

Court yesterday was difficult. Although we don't know exactly where Vosco will end up, these things we do know. 1) We have no more decision making power in the life of our 14 year old son. 2) It may be YEARS before the four of us can EVER do anything together again. 3) We will have limited (if any) moral influence on our son during his remaining juvenile years. 4) We may NEVER live together as a family again. 5) Although we have no decision making power in our son's life we still get the distinct pleasure of paying the state 'child support' until he is out of their custody.

I do not tell you this so you can "feel sorry for me" or for any other silly reason like that. Our life is what it is. We will do everything in our power to make sure our Vosco gets EVERYTHING he needs to succeed in this life. Ultimately, the success or failure of his treatment lies in his hands, but we will never stop doing what we can.

All I ask is this: PLEASE be grateful for the gifts you are given. These families who have missionaries out will see blessings in their lives FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES! I have been off my mission for over 22 years and I STILL see blessings from my service.

Sometimes blessings have some discomfort associated with them. In the midst of the trials we have faced we have seen an abundance of blessings and our faith has increased. I wish I didn't have to go through this trial... but I am grateful to take it head on and fight with all of my might.

Just be grateful and don't whine!